I have been actively trying to reconnect with myself.

This year has been so revealing to me.
This dear and juicy blog is slowly representing this change and transformation. I knew I had something going on when I wrote on my intro “Filofax helping me get organized”.

It was just the start!

Hours of journaling and drooling over some long lost passions, like stickers and pens, have been helping me so much to find my center, my balance.

I am very fortunate that it evolved into going back to watercolor. Even while researching and deciding on my first Filofax I found an entry on my Franklin Covey saying “try watercolor again”.

If you have been following my posts (yay!) you may had noticed here and there a few posts about how excited I am getting with this “new” art world ahead of me.

New yet so familiar in so many ways.

Many rules and old patterns need to be cleared out thou.
I am working so hard on letting go of those creativity blocker thingys.

Like “hold the brush that way not that way” or “this is not how to use this technique” and so on.

It is amazing how those magic-killer rules makes us retract and forget about the fun process of making art.

**The process**

How do we dare not make it enjoyable?

In one of the first moments getting back into illustrating I had that little blockage of mine.

I was enjoying, really ENJOYING my illustration.
Even humming a song. (I am usually very happy when I start humming!)

Than suddenly I stopped and horrified looked at the illustration and thought:

“oh my goodness, I’m not supposed to turn the page side ways to do this!”

Excuse me? I am not SUPPOSED to?

And quickly my inner critic decided to be “nice” and give me a “word of advice”:

“well, no one will know you turned the page, just turn it”

EXCUSE ME? no one will KNOW?

Then FINALLY, the nurturing and self-loving side of my mind stepped up and spoke out loud (in a sweet way):

“Are you kidding me?????  Turn it, flip it, fold it, twist it, dice it, dip it into paint and tell the entire world that you turned it, fliped it, folded it, twisted it, diced it, dipped into paint but for crying out loud KEEP THE FUN ROLLING!!!!! Don’t stop NOW!!!”

So yeah, it has been a journey of self discovery to go back to painting.

Discovering huge influences, norms and inner critics that need to change.

I have found so many beautiful bloggers out there doing so many beautiful work. It is so invigorating and reassuring.
Some of them had even similar situations, worked around them and are out there spreading the word. Beautiful!

So here I am about to start my first – of many to come – creativity releasing course:

It will be Leonie’s of course!! Because you know I love her! hehehe

Oh, you didn’t know I love her? Take a look at the buttons – scrolling down – on the side bar ———->
Hers is right there together with Philofaxy. I gotta really love her, right? 😉

So there is the course:

Super excited! Already printed out the first week’s booklet. Soon the pages will go into my Filofax, hehe

The course starts in two days, on August 1, and here is the course’s blurb copied and pasted from her website:

I joined the circle a while back and can’t say enough how supportive, helpfull and enlighting it has been connecting with all those women.

I trust the course will be what the blurbs say – yes, I am believer! 😀

Aaaaand I trust even more, better saying, I KNOW that I love people, I love communicating and that the course will be SO much more fun from start till the end with peeps that I know.

Care to join me?

Love, love, love
LT

PS- I spotted a Filofax fan the first day I joined the circle! You know who you are missy! Come on, let’s do it! 🙂