I love online peeps and how their ideas, thoughts, spirituality, feelings and all their juiciness are so available for us to dig in when and as much as we need.
So many wonderful people doing such amazing work out there.
You know, it ain’t easy to get out of CrabbyLand when you have physical pain.
I have been having it, in a quite strong way unfortunately, for four days now. Plus months of light daily pain and discomfort.
It is starting to get to me I must say.
Frustrated I went to bed. iPhone in hand I knew I would find relief and a bright light somewhete if I only searched for it.
Mmmmm, and there it was.
For AGES I have been meaning to go check Andrea Scher’s work. Then I remember reading on twitter that she just put up her new site.
Oh yeah! Off I went to check it out.
Amazing! Uplifting, inspiring and a relief in the midst of foggy feelings and thoughts.
Her honest bio and…. THE SUPERPOWERS! Oh, peeps! Really go read it ♥ check her bio first, then this —> your power is?
Joy, joy, joy above all. I am very talented on finding joy on the smallest or simplest things. And bringing joy to my surroundings too! I’m actually giving myself a few stars for that ★★★★
Other superhero powers to be unleashed as I go. As I let me be.
See ya all tomorrow! 🙂
Smooches and hugs,
PS: oh! And there is a giveaway happenig there too! Courses, books, a bag and a camera! Don’t miss it!
I was very very crabby when I woke up today.
Still laying in bed, started chitchatting on twitter then jumped into my blogger feeds.
I found denthe’s post about an art challenge.
Mmmmmm. A Face challenge, huh?
I had that HappyMe x Perfectionism conversation again:
HappyMe: that sounds fun.
Perfectionism: You are very bad at drawing people thou.
HappyMe: Well, that is a good fun way to practice!
Perfectionism: but it is 29 days! almost everyday! you started the #photoaday twice and dropped BOTH times.
Perfectionism: and the photo challenge is easier then this one.
HappyMe: well, I had fun both times and if I drop this one too, I know I will have fun the days I did a face.
Perfectionism: One more thing, look at those ladies’ blogs. They are very good and experienced artists!
HappyMe: FUN, I said FUN! I am doing it and stop talking me out of it!
ok, out of the putting down conversation I started thinking what to use for the faces.
I thought of those little white masks, that you paint on. But then I would have to go buy them, nah.
Decided to stick with watercolor that is what I have at home.
I found out I am almost running out of watercolor paper.
Oh! great chance for perfectionsim to kick in again:
Perfectionism: well, didn’t you say you were going to festival downtown? Go get a small book just for that, so you will have all the faces together.
HappyMe: I may not want to do it when I am back. I am starting now. I am serious, bye!
That was a very quick one, lasted seconds thankfully, because I was determined to not let my perfectionism ruin another fun activity for me.
I got say it is still very much there! Sometimes it starts talking to me, I dont even notice and I am just agreeing with everything it says! LOL
Good thing is that when I recognize it, I am getting better and quicker on getting out of that “naysay” attitude.
Soooo, continuing, I chopped down some scrap watercolor paper I had and got started, yay!
Finally, all that just to tell you: I started! LOL
Here is the little guy. Not done yet. Waiting for it to dry to do the final touches so decided to write this post meanwhile.
Even if lasts just one day,
even if I just make this one single face,
it worked already.
I am completely out of CrabbyLand!
This post I meant to had published last Friday.
Bummer, I am late!
Why do I feel I am late and had to post this reminder on Friday?
Well, the thing is I signed up for this course a few months ago in the last minute.
I actually signed up the NIGHT BEFORE the course started.
For a few simple reasons:
- I don’t like to cook and following recipes with ingredients I am not used to is a pain in the butt for me.
- Working full-time and craving “ME-time” every single day doesn’t leave much willingness to experiment with the above mentioned disliked activity.
- By signing up the night before, I did not have time to stock up the fridge with the right ingredients. I actually didn’t even know what the ingredients were! I started reading the workbook the day OF the course.
- Because I sign up on the last minute, I was totally LOST in the Circle and had no idea what to expect.
- Sure thing there are Circle Guides in there and many tutorials to help you out, but it takes TIME to walk thru all those initial resources. I felt very overwhelmed and frustrated.
- Combining all those points together with the fact that I was NOT on a quest to overcome my perfectionism, guess what happened? Easy-breezy to guess, right? Yep, I dropped the course on the second day!
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I watched the workshop only once (downloaded twice just to make sure, hehe) and it really impacted me. I am using just a few of the tools for right now and feeling the change everyday.
The Healing Workshop is up just till this Friday. If you decide to join the Circle on Monday you won’t get it.
I have been writing/ painting daily on my gratitude journal. It is amazingly powerful!
It shifts your mind!
I AM looking at things differently and finding wonderful blessings all around me all the time.
This morning I meditated.
Very surprising for me as usually I do at the end of the day.
I think I hadn’t been sleeping well, it is too hot! I woke up feeling weird, crabby I guess.
So I decided to meditate in the morning to see if my day got better.
Right after that I was inspired and wrote A LOT on my journal and on my Gratitude Book.
Things really change. Actually I change.
I started getting ready for work and I looked at the window and choked, just choked with this:
|it is there right now|
Where have a I been? How have I never notice that gorgeous inspiring tree on my window?
oh, sure thing, it is not that I never saw it! Of course I saw it! I just never NOTICED it.
So beautiful! Sitting right there, shiny and smily all this time and I cared to notice it just today.
Beautiful, SO beautiful and right here, NOW. Not on some vague day in the future 🙂
It is out there right now, having a good rest for another beautiful shiny day.
Then later today I went for my daily check in at the Goddess Circle.
I had an email! Yay!
An email from a beautiful circle member saying that today she saw a picture and thought about me.
She thought about me because she read my entry on the Creative Goddess forum about trusting myself.
* By the way, that same insight I put it out here on my blog too. If you are curious, here it is 🙂 ——> Insight!*
Sooooo, she send me a lovely email and posted the picture. Look at that inspiring juiciness:
Aaaaawww and she thought of me when she saw that?!
Terriiiiii big thanks, waves and hugs to you from out heeeerreee!!!!! Please put your blog up soon! 🙂
Much much love,
Ok, this post was supposed to have been put up yesterday. Even thou it is Monday evening, I am still counting it as a weekend wrap-up 🙂
I am just too excited accomplishing things and very glad they had happened. yeaaaah!
- I finished another painting, yay,yay,yay!
- I meditated. And A LOT! I am very dazzled with it, how did I manage to go so many years without it?
- I created AND SENT a very juicy welcoming love-letter to my new newsletter subscribers ♥♥♥♥
- I created two different sets of social media icons for my new blog. I was thinking of a new banner too but after my post from yesterday…. Mmmmmmm I fell in love all over again with it. I will leave it like that for now.
- I delivered a guest posts! Yeeeeeessssss!!!!! I had so much fun writing it! I am so excited and thankful for having one of my posts out there to be read by more peeps! Thanks Philofaxy for that brilliant idea! Yay for that!
- I hadn’t been to the gym in forever time but yesterday after a whole productive Sunday-fun I decided to go walk in the park! Yeah, not the gym, THE PARK! Which is a gazillion times better, more refreshing and much more beautiful! hehehehe.
- I filled in more pages of my Gratitude Book which I love every single second of it. It is so juicy! Gets more beautiful everyday!
On an unrelated note, this morning I had peaches on my desk welcoming me to a new week! have you tried one of those Rotary peaches? Well, I guess if you are not in Colorado probably you haven’t. I am not sure if it is just a local thing or not.
Anyway, I ordered them thru a co-worker like a month ago and they were there on my desk, waiting for me this morning. Huge, round, ripe and smelling sooooo good. It was a good Monday start 🙂
Now, here, take this flower as my “thank you” for reading my post and go have a great Tuesday!
We reaaaalllly need to keep doing what we are doing!
I mean, really!
Messages do get to us when we need them.
I have been struggling to decide if I should move to WordPress or not. Many research, ask here, ask there and frustration all around because everything seems so complicated.
My reasons? WP seems to get more viewers.
My short term research told me that are some SEO thingys not available here on blogger.
But then comes the maintenance, plug ins and all sort of things that I need to learn about. Argh!
After a week of researching, this evening I was on the edge of overwhelm and doubts, thinking to myself “why on earth do I need to reach out to more people anyway? Are people really reading this, and is it meaningful?
And….. I AM NOT KIDDING PEEPS!
With those thoughts on my head I start to get ready to take a shower. I hear a bip on my phone and curiously grab it again just “to check”.
I could not believe it!! My jaw totally dropped. “Is she a mind-reader now? How did she know I was questioning that??”
For many of you out there, it may be no big deal and a part of your daily routine IS to respond to “thank you” emails.
Well, it is a big deal for me! 🙂
That was a first and made me SO happy! You totally made my whole day missy! Thank You! :))
We so need to keep doing what we are meant to do.
Smooches and much love,
And so you can just imagine how all of us “here” watch in anticipation to see which ones will have the courage to do whatever little they can each day, with what little they’ve got, from where they are, before their baby steps turn into giant leaps for the legions who will follow them. “
It’s so in you,
Really, really soon –
Perfectionism Vs. HappyMe: 1 x 0
I sadly realized that perfectionism is harder to overcome than I thought.
A LOT OF MOTHS ago I started working on this.
Then yesterday I just found them laying around under a pile of papers on my desk.
mmmmm, I remember calling a few companies to get quotes to print out the stickers, what happened here?
oh, right! I thought I could do a few more color sample combinations “just in case”.
ooooohhhh dear God, just in case of what?
Now summer is almost over and those two cuties here won’t have a slot on my Filofax anymore:
Perfectionism Vs. HappyMe: 2 x 0
Yesterday I set myself to finish one of the art projects of the Creative Goddess e-course.
I was very scared to get started. White canvas fright:
I started working on it, and it was great! I was having fun and things were shaping till a certain point.
When I reached THAT point that one thingy wasn’t coming out right oh, gosh!!! My world flipped!
I tried to fix it, got worse, tried again, worsen and that is it! Painted all white again to start over
Argh! Overcoming perfectionism is VERY challenging!
Perfectionism Vs HappyMe: 2 x 1
Ok, I got one point at least this week! 🙂
I decided to start, aside of my regular journal, a Grateful Art Journal.
I got very excited with the idea and wanted to start right away! My brain was bubbly thinking how to get started.
HappyMe: “oh, I have the moleskine watercolor book that I use to practice! I can use that!”
Perfectionism: “Are you kidding me? it is a study book! there are a lot of messy things there, can’t be a Gratitude Book!”
HappyMe: “Mmmmmm, but just to start. Just for today’s gratitudes. I really want to put out RIGHT NOW what I am feeling this moment. I will get a book just for that later today, after I put out what I am feeling.”
Perfectionism: “You are starting all messed up already! If you start the first page on a separate book, your Gratitude Book will always be incomplete; it will always be missing the first page of the first day when you decided to do it!”
HappyMe: “It’s ok, it doesn’t need to be perfect.”
YAY me! Score!!!!!
I did it! One point for HappyMe!
And there it is, in the middle of all the watercolor doodling, my very first page:
- Chris: my love! Always supportive and patient! Couldn’t be luckier!
- Today: It is a very peaceful day, thankful for having it.
- Light: I LOVE light! But not “switch-on” light. I love natural light, and having all windows wide open to have all light possible!
- Studio: I just created a studio – by just I mean a month and a half ago. It is SO beautiful! SO much light! I could sit here all day long
- Frankie: I always thought he was too clingy for a cat. But no, he is just a very loving cat.
- House: We are moving. We are a little tired of suburbia. The hardest thing for me will be to leave this house. Specially after setting up this studio. It feels so homy. I love our sweet house.
- Possibilities: There are SO many out there! Like a huge fog is out of my way! SO much wonderful things about to happen!
- Journal: Starting my new journal! Watercolor everywhere! Yay!
- Vision: That may sound silly, but I am very glad to have my vision working, otherwise I wouldn’t be able to see that inspiring light coming thru the window, my wonderful studio and all the pretty things everywhere.
- Clarity: To see it all! Not necessarily with my eyes, but to understand things and make sense of them! Everything is getting into pretty, comfy shapes!
What’s in it for today?
It certainly seemed the same. But different, you know?
So every single day same old? It is annoyingly depressive.
Then I decided that everyday that is called “today” would be different.
What was different today then?
Today I did this:
No big deal??? Well for me it is. Specially on a week day, after work 🙂
This lovely earthy feeling USED to be part of my routine.
Back in the days when I did my own schedule, dressed as I wanted and didn’t have to drive.
“Oh, you mean when you were a kid” I hear you say.
“No, no, as an adult” I would promptly respond 🙂
Just different careers, different routines, ya know?
Anyway, things change.
Till another “today”.
Feeling happy about my “big deal” action of TODAY 🙂
Today something totally new and different here on my blog.
Something totally new and different for me actually!
I have been thinking about and experimenting with it for a few months now and I am going to give it a go:
I did one week of GF food and felt the difference right away.
My stomach wouldn’t hurt right after eating, I wouldn’t feel bloated by just having a soup and my energy level rose up!
Yes, but I thought it was a little silly of me to go GF if I didn’t have an actual allergy to it. So off for some blood testing I went.
The result? Negative! None allergic reaction to gluten whatsoever.
Mmmmmm? How come I felt better the whole week I ate GF?
Maybe because GF food is not that easy to find so I ate less junk and more salads and protein.
But regardless of HOW a GF diet managed to make me feel better, I will keep on going.
So, this past saturday…
oh wait, did I tell you that hubby has been an amazing support of this whole process? He tried a GF diet for a few days, felt better and with more energy as well and guess what? Off he went to research GF beer!
Hehe, THAT’S my man! Love him dearly for that! 🙂
So continuing, this past Saturday we went to our favorite local restaurant / bar – BJ’s.
That was a whole new world ahead of me and I had no idea!
We first asked for the GF menu.
Great, the waitress brought it right away!
It took us a little longer then usual to select food & drinks as we were trying to figure out the possibilities of the menu.
Anyway, we ordered and shortly there after the CHEF pops out of the kitchen and comes to our table.
He just came to assure us that the order was taken and that would be no cross-contamination on our food. He explained how sympathetic he was with GF dieters as his mom was gluten intolerant and he knew the challenges of eating out because of that.
Well, I got very smiley and surprised with that VIP treatment!
A little after he left, came the manager with the same purpose; assure the GF food was really GF, cross-contamination wouldn’t happen and offer any assistance if the food wasn’t as we wanted.
I am REALLY not used with that VIP treatment; specially from a chain restaurant!
Anyway, we had a very good dinner with drinks and all!
As I love taking pics and sharing them, this time couldn’t be different! 🙂
Our first outing as a GF couple:
|GF Beer and tequila|
Pizza was REALLY good! Very surprised and left me wanting more! LOL
I had ordered the regular version of this cookie a gazillion times at this restaurant and it NEVER took so long! Actually it didn’t even took long, it took FOREVER for them to bring it!!
I wonder if they had to bake right there as no one ever orders the GF version.
Fine with me becasue it was AMAZING!
Very good first experiences with our new eating habits. Will see how everything unfolds!
As always, thanks for reading! 🙂