AN INSIGHT!!!!

Yesterday I was really into hanging around and reading the discussions at the circle.

I got all caught up with my assignments for the creative course and started working on the next week.

The assignment had a worksheet to fill out.
SO hard.

I struggled to answer all the questions and at some point I had an insight – yeeesss! – on why I was getting so stuck on things!

I wrote all down on the worksheet, run out of room and jumped into my journal.

I pour it all out and to summarize that was my huge-ground-breaking insight:

Notice that it was such a powerful insight that I cross out the “need” which sounded much like a “at some point” and decided to make it a NOW action.

I really felt stoked by my finding.

THAT is why I am stuck lately!  I keep questioning my gut feelings.
I feel something is right but doubt it and end up doing nothing!

ooooohhhh excitement, really that is light at the end of the tunnel! Making choices!

NOW I AM ROCKING ALL AROUND! hehehehe

Sure thing the awarness is only the first step. Watching my mind-tricks to pull me into old patterns will be the challenge.

The day after my ground-breaking insight I was talking to a friend and during the conversation I realized how hard it is for me to settle within the “I don’t know or I am figuring out” area, you know?

I always had someone to tell me what to do if I didn’t know  (“that’s how we had always done that”) or what direction to go – (“this is the best route for sure! Why wouldn’t someone want that?”) or I would at least believe I already had the answer and I would just go for it.

Sitting on the “I don’t know, I am experimenting, I am figuring it out”, is very new.

I hadn’t practise my “trust-my-self” muscle in years and all of a sudden I can finally exercise them. They feel sore. Very sore.

Now I see, it is a good sore you know? Like after working out at the gym.

Very happy with my insight.

That insight paired with my quest on ignoring my perfectionism and I will find my ways to unstuck and move forward!

*** happy all around ***

Love, love, love
LT

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4 responses

  1. oh, great! Now besides messing my fonts now there are some frames around the pictures that weren't there before :-/
    What's going on with my blog? Offended that I am thinking of moving? Or just trying to make me move quicker? 😀

  2. Frames appear when you add captions to pictures….

    And may be take a look at my You Tube video on moving Word text to blogger in a few easy steps

    http://youtu.be/GnDogkUm1p8

  3. I find that putting in spiritual work leads to greater self-trust. A person cannot live on bread alone.

  4. @steve Thank you for the link Steve! I will try it out!

    @innvestigators yessss! So very true!!!!

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